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Chapter 2

Grace and Hope James finally woke up in a very somber state of mind after that emotionally torn, yet peaceful night.  He had the thought of pulling the window shades, so he did that for the first time in many months.  As the sunlight came into the room, James felt a sense of warmth in the light that beamed through the window. He fumbled into the kitchen and make him some toast.   As He flipped though his bible he drank some juice, he knew that he had experienced something very powerful that he had never experienced before. Then he spoke out loud, "God, I don't want to live like this anymore...I can't mentally handle this life."  His words seemed to be reaching out for something tangible and real. He had been isolated in his apartment for many months only going out for groceries. Even that was a bit much for him.   He alienated from his family and his church. James had had his share of difficult times when he couldn't take the mental anguish any longer. Those u

Chapter 1

A Cry in The Night Afraid to move, James lay in his bed motionless at 4:00 a.m. His muscles ached from staying in the same position for hours, as he stared at the ceiling. With the shades drawn, the darkness seemed to envelope the entire room, including James. With all the strength he could muster, he breathed in and out in overwhelming anguish. He didn’t think he could take much more. Gloom and thick darkness filled the atmosphere. In the spiritual realm, Satan summoned the demons of death and suicide. One by one, they assembled around James’s bed, like mourners around a coffin. In disgust and hate, they looked down upon his struggling body and soul. Finally, one of the suicide demons in the room spoke in a chilling, sinister voice, “Kill yourself.” He motioned for the other demons. All together, they began chanting those life-defying words in unison. James could hear them loud and clear. For several months, he had listened to their taunts; each blast had drained him more and more. In